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« Thread Started on Aug 1, 2007, 4:31am » | ![[Quote]](http://s1.images.proboards.com/buttons/quote.gif) |
'You can't do it, just give up now!' My inner voice was both loud and piercing. For what seemed like an eternity, all I could do was focus on the large amount of pills that laid within my hand. 'Put them down Georgie, it ain't worth it.' Somehow, I managed to muffle the voice that seemed to play the role as my salvation. In my left hand was a glass of water that would act as a main ingredient for the concoction that would end my excuse for a life, and in my right hand was the pills, my savior.
I fiddled with the pills, passing them in between my fingers until I was content. But the little game that was designed to occupy my thoughts was unsuccessful. Soon, I felt the overwhelming feeling of sadness drop over me like an uncomfortable blanket. Yet this emotion was familiar. Not new at all to be quite honest. Throughout my life I had simply ignored it. As if to convince myself that its presence was false. And because of the actions of my past, I was in this position.
A small note remained downstairs on the kitchen counter. Though it was an unbearable attempt to explain my feelings to the ones I loved so dearly, I believed it was a failure. The only way to make them understand is to show them how sad and alone I am. 'Don't do it. You have so much to live for.' The inner voice resembled that of an alarm. Something only I could hear and was unable to turn off. 'What about your mom, your sister! What will they think when they arrive home to find you dead?' In frustration, I threw the pills and the glass of water to the ground.
"Shut up!" I yelled aloud as I paced back and fourth across my room. "I hate this. I hate it all. Why the hell am I here?" I dropped to the ground from exhaustion. I felt small tears tremble down my rough cheek. The taste of salt quickly appeared inside my dry and tasteless mouth. Slumber slowly fell over my thin and frail body. 'There ya go Georgie, another night of sleep for us.' The voice said to me, as it had done multiple time before.
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